feel'N vunerable

my name is irrelevant. im young, free and beautiful ( not through my appearance, through my thoughts & my heart )

that kinda DREAM!

have you ever had that kind of dream before?

the kind that only makes you happy and hopeful inside that dream, but when you wake up to reality...poof! there goes all your hopefulness, just like that. because you know whatever happened inside that dream won't ever happen in real life.

yes, that kind of a dream.

so a few days ago i decided i wanted to blog again!!!!!!!!! but i was just waiting for that moment in time when i needed to let it out!!!! and today is that day!!!

last friday night i had ladies night with a few of my closest friends and we laffed danced and drank until we couldnt stand up straight!!!! while under the influence of alchohol one of my best friends told me she might be leaving for the navy soon...what she failed to tell me was that she would b leaving on WED!!!!! wow wed is sooooooo soon!!!!! i wasnt ready to deal with her not being here with me.... i know that the navy is something she wanted to do more than anything but i wasnt aware that her time to go would come so soon...im not sure if im ready to deal with life and all that it brings without having her in my corner....


day i want u to kno that im soooo uber proud of u but i cant help but b sad about the thought of you leaving me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want nothing but the best for u and wish u all the success in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love u lots and u betta show out!!!! ohhh and i'll be at ur graduation in august i promise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


MeeK!

I turned off the light

Hoping I could see my thoughts more clearly

Without the light

I look in the mirror and see me more clearly

I am here in this moment

Realizing Im not who I claim to be

I take pride in knowing my potential

Yet, take no initiative to fulfill all that I am capable of being and doing

God is said to be the Ground Of Being…..

I say He is the Ground Of Doing

Doing what is right…..

Doing what you want

In a respectful, righteous manner

I am currently what I do

And based on those things...

I am not the being I want to be

But I know my potential

Afraid of my potential?

Maybe

Or possibly

It’s afraid of me

And sometimes I say these things just to be poetic

Without believing a thing

A friend once told me, regarding poetry…

“Be as honest as possible”

In that moment

I realized

I couldnt be...

If so,

It wouldnt be me

And this is my first

Transitional piece

from lies to honesty

Honest Poetry .

...................

ITS BEEN A WHILE!!!

Hope everyone is doing great!!

I am :)

Will be blogging more soon ...

Just wanted to say

Hi!

as i sit here , i think i should be happy

.. but there is a tear in my eye .

not EYES .. but eye .

my left eye has one sweet tear moving slowly down my face .. & im not sure why . .. well i am sure WHY, but i wish it wasn't. i know ive been excepting to see him, talk to him .. have a laugh of too .. but yet he hasnt came back. this is so rude / weird .. BUT he's GONE forever annd that's what's making y LEFT eye cry

since ive come on home ..

since ive come on home ..

my wishes are silent but true ,

everywhere they will f0ll0w y0u ,

luck is y0urs , wishes are mine ..

i wish y0ur present & future will always shine !

h0pe 2mora will be

amazing

blazing

[&&]

c0l0rful