mixed Emotions

Okay so as of right now im feeling like blah!!!!!!!! i've been feeling down for the last few days because i've been a tad bit on the lonely side! :-( i have been single for a looooong time lol and i know taht this may just sound like me having a legit girl moment but hey its my blog and i need to release so thats what imma do....

im tired of not having someone to cuddle with

im tired of all the niggas i talk to thinking they are entitled to have sex with me

im tired of niggas being wack{wack game, wack clothes, just wack ass lives}


im tired of lying ass niggas

im tired of having to teach grown ass men how to treat a lady

shit im tired of being let down bcuz i have high standards

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH im tired of being sexually frustrated sheesh!!!!!!!

so if u know a sweet cute tall guy send him my way lololololololololol

and with all this said im headed to bed with my puppy!!!!

MeeK

Te AMO!!!!!!!!

si lee este yo sólo le quiero al kow que te quiero más que usted jamás puede comprender y yo siempre hago


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SomeDays im reaLLy happY and other daYs im just Blah!!!!



ToDAY is a BLAHHHHH day!!!!!!!

feel'N vunerable

my name is irrelevant. im young, free and beautiful ( not through my appearance, through my thoughts & my heart )

that kinda DREAM!

have you ever had that kind of dream before?

the kind that only makes you happy and hopeful inside that dream, but when you wake up to reality...poof! there goes all your hopefulness, just like that. because you know whatever happened inside that dream won't ever happen in real life.

yes, that kind of a dream.

so a few days ago i decided i wanted to blog again!!!!!!!!! but i was just waiting for that moment in time when i needed to let it out!!!! and today is that day!!!

last friday night i had ladies night with a few of my closest friends and we laffed danced and drank until we couldnt stand up straight!!!! while under the influence of alchohol one of my best friends told me she might be leaving for the navy soon...what she failed to tell me was that she would b leaving on WED!!!!! wow wed is sooooooo soon!!!!! i wasnt ready to deal with her not being here with me.... i know that the navy is something she wanted to do more than anything but i wasnt aware that her time to go would come so soon...im not sure if im ready to deal with life and all that it brings without having her in my corner....


day i want u to kno that im soooo uber proud of u but i cant help but b sad about the thought of you leaving me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want nothing but the best for u and wish u all the success in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love u lots and u betta show out!!!! ohhh and i'll be at ur graduation in august i promise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


MeeK!

I turned off the light

Hoping I could see my thoughts more clearly

Without the light

I look in the mirror and see me more clearly

I am here in this moment

Realizing Im not who I claim to be

I take pride in knowing my potential

Yet, take no initiative to fulfill all that I am capable of being and doing

God is said to be the Ground Of Being…..

I say He is the Ground Of Doing

Doing what is right…..

Doing what you want

In a respectful, righteous manner

I am currently what I do

And based on those things...

I am not the being I want to be

But I know my potential

Afraid of my potential?

Maybe

Or possibly

It’s afraid of me

And sometimes I say these things just to be poetic

Without believing a thing

A friend once told me, regarding poetry…

“Be as honest as possible”

In that moment

I realized

I couldnt be...

If so,

It wouldnt be me

And this is my first

Transitional piece

from lies to honesty

Honest Poetry .

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